Bailey,

 What the heck happened to my baby?? You are seven? that is just crazy! You are so helpful most of the time but are testing your limits when it comes to how much you can help..You want nothing more than to do everything yourself and I don't blame you it's kinda an awkward age eh! Your too big for some things but to small for a lot still..No you can not walk ANYWHERE by yourself..I'm sorry you don't understand why yet but the reason will creep you out trust me..

You know way to much for your age and are completely fascinated with the weirdest things but the same things I was fascinated with when I was seven and to be completely honest with you they still fascinate the heck out of me! You opened your daily news paper recently and to your excited eyes saw pictures of riots and fires I could see your crazy face light up and sure enough you say 'this is great news' You continue to say the funniest things and you talk a heck of a lot..

I noticed a big change in you within the last year..You like Harry potter A LOT!! you now insist that your bedrooms should be in your closet and are at me about that consistently.I would baby believe me I would and maybe will but I'm a little apprehensive about having my child sleep in a closet simply because there are people out there who might get mommy in trouble but they don't need to know;) You can drive me crazy because you absolutely need to know EVERYTHING all the time.I know that is ok but you really don't need to know that I took money out of the wrong bank account!!or how much money I have constantly and monitoring how much I am spending..You have become a bit sad lately and I think I know why..It's ok to be sad but always know that when your ready to rock I am here to be your dancing partner..

Love you Kid

XO

 

I have had a rough past couple of weeks hence not blogging..I have experienced emotions that I didn't even know I had in me.I have accepted them as normal and ok due to the circumstances and feel that I am completely entitled to the emotions.

I have learned so much about who I am good and bad and have realized how strong I can be in moments of weakness..

I have completely been vulnerable more now then ever to my surroundings and I am appreciating the small things that I have not gave the attention they deserved in the past.

I was blowing bubbles with the girls and was mesmerized by the colours in each bubble I have failed to recognize in the past.I could not stop watching them as they were floating in the air and watching the girls feel the same as I did in that moment made me fall deeper in love with them.

I had a bump in the road that I will figure out how to get over and appreciating the little things life has to offer and finding the 'extraordinary in the ordinary' helps make the big things feel smaller and easier to conquer!